“Even now…I seek the churches in which there is no service in progress, preferring to wander in wistful silences than to mouth words which aren’t quite sayable,” Julian says.
This sounds to me like the beginning of faith. We have a craving for certainty. Beliefs provide an illusion of certainty. Faith enables us to live with uncertainty. This is good, because there is little we can be certain of in this mutable world.